The day someone skips a meal on purpose for the first time is the day when they find Ana. The day someone overeats and throws up "just to see what it's like" for the first time is that day they find Mia. and once they're found, they won't ever go back to being lost Ana and Mia. Sisters, twin sisters, yet with different purposes. Both have a goal to achieve: to create perfection. perfection comes with high demands You are never in control. Starting from day one, they slowly take over your life, robbing you of its riches and joys. They con you, they hurt you, they make you stand in front of a mirror and show the truth, nothing but the truth, but even then that can be an illusion. And they never ever stop, and nobody can stop them. that is how people outside our world view them To me, they are guides. Helpers, not hurters. Protecting me from the pain and cruelty of the world. Keeping me safe and offering me hope when everything else seems pointless. Call me crazy. Call me stupid. I've heard it before all too many times. I cannot picture a life without Ana and Mia. Without Mia, maybe, I'd like to see her go, but Ana has made a permanent home in my mind and I can't evict her. She will guide me through the rest of my high school days, and into college, and she will probably guide me to my own grave. She is my support system, the wooden beams onto which I build my life on. Without her, everything will collapse, and then what? What will become of me? Will I disappear from life slowly, so it will be a surprise when you finally realize I'm gone? Or will I dash it all and in a fit of madness drive myself in front of a passing train? she won't leave, so I can't leave I've forgotten what life was like with Ana...last time I was with her was back in 8th grade...now, two years later, I'm trying to evict Mia, but she too is stubborn and she won't leave. So maybe I'll just bury her in my memories, and dig out Ana, and then Ana will remind me how everything used to be, and I'll finally be thin. Thin and happy, but of course, that is part of the illusion, but at this moment I don't care. | 